Indecisive train of thoughts

(irrelevant gif made from cinemag.ram to color the entry with some cheer before I ramble)

The Indeciveness

You know, I keep telling myself whenever my life is flooded with distress and uncertainty that ” It gets better, stay strong”. I did, and I move on. I got strucked with several indecisive point in my life and I hated it excessively, its like the feeling of drilling a hole into my brain. Talking about indecisive, what actually makes a person couldnt decide?One word, fear. The immense risk that may come from making wrong decision is indescribable because we know we could not make a U turn , once we choose plan A , plan B will be scraped. No second chance.Fair enough 🙄

I could not decide on an elective for next semester now, that’s why I’m writing this entry,somehow writing it here really helps to explore up the inner self (wtf am i saying). So its either New Product Marketing(3114) or Marketing Communications(3112) .I’m the type of person that group project work actually lift my mark and that’s why at first I’m leaning towards the 3112 where plenty a lot of group project and final exam. 3114 consist of 2 exams and 1 major group project.The thing is , I’ve been warned by a friend that 3112 is hard 😯
this really triggers my brain to change it and enroll in 3114 instead. My brain was all “You’d been warned this is a major sign to change it already! 3114 have 2 exams , even though you aren’t exam type of student, pretty sure if you put your mind to it , it’d be do-able, exams = they give you topics to study, project = its entirely not dependent on whether you study or not” .

Both is a gamble. However, after much thoughts and mental calculations (yes, you probably notice how I choose an elective entirely on how much I could score on it 😕 ) . I think I’d go ahead with 3114 , I think the only thing that made me wanted 3112 was that I have friends who enroll in that and so I automatically assumed I’d higher chance in scoring. But false, I’d did electives in last semester with a genius friend of mine , but still, results still as average as ever. So you know, I’m gonna take 3114 , hopefully teamed up with dream team and get a not-fail mark for project and for the 2 exams, just gonna study it off. It’s better cause at least exams, I know I can do well if I put my mind to it. For 3112 many projects , even if I put my mind to it , if its wrong, if the lecturer didnt like it = NO POINT.

Okay, thanks wordpress. I’m gonna go ahead with my enrolment variation 🙂